Last week I shared the practical side of horse ownership, the dollars, the drive time, the training bills, and the hard question of whether it made sense to keep investing in Bee.

This week, I gave Sarah my answer.

I just can’t sell Bee.

Could that conversation exist again someday? Of course. Horses, like life, rarely come with permanent absolutes. But right now, I know where my heart is. I want to continue working on my horsemanship, and Bee and I both still have work to do.

The plain truth is that I am emotionally invested in and attached to her.

Yes, she is the horse that ran off with me when I was not skilled enough to ride it out or stop her. Looking back now, I understand more clearly what happened that day. I pushed her too hard, past what she could process, and she answered the only way she knew how.

And yes, she is an anxious horse.

Some horse people might describe a horse like Bee as “blown up.” That phrase usually means a horse whose emotions have escalated past calm thinking. They are reactive, worried, mentally overloaded, and no longer making quiet decisions. Sometimes it comes from fear, sometimes confusion, sometimes too much pressure, and sometimes a history that taught them to expect stress.

A good trainer does not simply overpower that horse.

They work to rebuild confidence through repetition, consistency, clear boundaries, and enough calm experiences that the horse begins to trust the process instead of bracing against it. It is less about winning a battle and more about changing the conversation.

That is exactly what Sarah is doing with Bee.

And that is why Bee is staying with Sarah for the next month.

Her journey continues, which means mine does too. I’ll keep taking lessons, keep improving my horsemanship, and keep learning how to be the kind of rider Bee can understand and trust. Sarah believes Bee is trainable. She also reminds me that every horse has their own timeline.

That matters.

Because Bee is also the horse who ran up to me in the pasture when I had been gone for eighteen days. I called her name, and she came.

How do you sell that feeling?

You don’t.

I realize some people at the barn are not interested in riding with an anxious horse. I understand that completely. But there are also those kind souls who tolerate me collecting Bee, riding circles around them, and helping her work down from anxiety before we can just quietly ride along.

I have been doing that for over a year now.

The difference is, I now have a growing set of awareness skills that will help me do it better.

That feels important.

This week also reminded me that horses are only part of what makes barn life special.

We had a baby shower for one of the women at the barn, and I left feeling immense gratitude for the horse community I have, both near and far. Yes, we bond over our horses, but we also bond over real life. Milestones, struggles, celebrations, losses, and everything in between.

That barn family means more than people realize.

We saw that again this week when Finn, a gelding at the barn, started trying to colic. Someone noticed him down in his stall and immediately called Lupe in to begin triage. The vet was called. His owner was called. And the prayers for him started loading in immediately.

It was a rough few days and little sleep for his momma, but thankfully Finn is doing very well now.

Once again, I was reminded how quickly horse people show up for one another.

There is something powerful about a community built around caring, because horses require it.

So this week’s answer is simple.

Bee stays.

We keep learning.
We keep showing up.
We keep building.

And if progress comes a little jagged sometimes, that’s alright too.

Until next time,
Christina & Bee 🐝💛

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